Tbh

It's hard to pretend everything's fine with you when actually something's bothering you right?

Idk. Maybe it's just me.

At first you can still shrug your shoulders and say "no big deal" and believe it will eventually pass. After all, you have faith.

Then before you know it, you're already neck-deep. But being the "mature" person that everybody thinks you are, somehow you just always end up crying on to God about it. The thing is, God seems silent too. Well, you've heard it before: The Teacher is always silent during a test. Knowing that doesn't make it any easier though.

You still long to hear a clear word of instruction from Him because, you know, you don't want to return to the old you who just decides on her own. You want to consult Him now every step of the way. (Dare I say,) why couldn't He make it easier for you to know His will?

God is sovereign.    His grace is made perfect in weakness.    Be thankful in all circumstances.    Consider it pure joy when you experience trials of many kinds. ...

You know all the right words for this. In fact, you can quote verses to yourself that seems applicable to the situation. But for some reason they just ring hollow to you. 

It's a good thing then that even though you feel like that, His words never cease being true.