#ToBeHonest: I don't know what to do anymore

That message hit me like a truck. 

No, maybe more like a train. 

I was in disbelief. Maybe for them it was just a standard email to a student during a normal day at the office. But to me, it's like someone told me "Im sorry you cant pursue your dream anymore, it stops here."
 

I missed the deadline for paying the tuition in our university because, well, I don't even have 1/10 of the amount required. So even before the deadline, I already messaged our department head to give her a heads up and ask her if there is something else we can do about it. So far, no respone from her yet. But I did get an email from the admin staff telling me if I still don't pay tuition by the middle of March I will be expelled from school. No exceptions. 

That was the message.

My first response was: Um, God...?

Wala namang ganyanan o... 

I was suddenly confronted with the real possibility that I wont be able to graduate, among some other worse things. Is it Your will God that I don't graduate? That I go and do something else? God please talk to me. Didn't You send me here on a mission? I literally don't know what to do about this...
 

The whole day today I was not my usual self and I just kept asking God to give me a Word -- to please talk to me in a different way. I know this sounds frivolous or too demanding but I just want to hear from You in a special way.

Before I slept tonight I did some audio editing and I realized, to my annoyance, that I made a mistake so I had to redo some part of it. I had to identify the exact point where I made a mistake so I can cut it properly that's why I listened to the mp3 again and marked the timestamp. It's at the 55-minute and 22-second mark. 55:22. That sounded really familiar to me and I quickly realized why. Because a couple of weeks ago we were doing a bible study and the verse Psalm 55:22 came up in the discussion. I opened my bible to that verse and this is what it says:

Cast your cares on the Lord
    and he will sustain you;
he will never let
    the righteous be shaken.

But this wasn't enough to convince me and I just went like: Yeah I know God but...what do we do about this problem?

Apparently, I wasn't listening.

Click here to read what happened the next day.